Absolutely beyond frustrated. Don't know that I even have energy to get into all of it now. I don't understand doctors who won't treat patients. I don't understand being made to feel like a drug seeker when I am in so much pain. I don't understand feeling isolated and being told that the way you feel, something you KNOW to be true, is really probably not the way you feel at all and how could you ever know that even after 14 years of migraines, once a month, like clockwork - migraines you have down to a science with triggers avoidance and constant dictation/journaling of every past episode -- how could you know that it's really not just a bad sinus infection and you should probably just take some claritin and it will go away? I would really love to know the honest majority of you that feel relief can only be reached by sleep, which is usually aided by a narcotic? For me, if I can just sleep it off for at least 10 hours I feel 99.9% better. More than inferring that I am some kind of drug addict, it offends me deeply that a doctor would assume I have no idea what I'm talking about when I'm the one experiencing the pain? Let's ask ourselves a more pertinent question -- who in their right freaking mind would MAKE UP a BLINDING, mind altering, all inhibiting pain that is accompanied by regular vomiting and general uncomfortableness so they can come out of the sanctuary of bed to an unfriendly doctor who has even less friendly nurses who all treat you like a junkie, who stab at you with their eyes worse than needles? Who would want to miss out on time with their family, time at their job, time doing ANYTHING other than being curled up in a ball on the floor, praying to God to either take the pain away or just end it altogether? Who would do that, willingly? I am sorry for the rant. I am just beyond.
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